October 23, 2013

Doubting Myself

At work today, I asked if I could take on a new assignment.  It's not something I usually work on but I know the person who usually does it is swamped and could use the help.  Plus she's my friend and I know I wouldn't be stepping on anybody's toes.  She'd be grateful for the help.  So I sent an email to two of the managers at 3pm asking if I could try my hand at this new project and didn't get a response back before I left. 

I know I shouldn't have expected an immediate response, but now I have all these doubts like:
Maybe they don't think I can handle it and their just trying to think of a nice way to tell me no.  So I feel silly and embarrassed for even asking.

I hate that I still doubt myself so much.  I look at the jobs that are out there and think "There's no way I could do that!" or "I don't think I'd be qualified for that."  Which is just stupid.  I have 4 college degrees and finished by MBA when I was 23.  I know I'm a smart person and have never failed at any job.  But I feel like I'm so unqualified.

1 comment:

  1. I think its great that you took the initiative. So want if they do say no for this one project. Next time they will remember that you want more responsibility. You aren't going to get fired for asking to help out. They are just busy and tackling e-mail some days takes a long time.